I find myself dwelling too much on my past. Thinking about how much fun I had when I was single and living in Oregon with my best friends. Somehow, the incredible stress I had during that time doesn't stick with the memories. I have to make myself honestly think about how life really was juggling a job, full-time school, full-time homework projects/assignments, keeping my part of the townhome clean, being active in my church group, and occasionally baby or housesitting.
The stressful part was the school. it was intense! and it wasn't like read this book and answer these questions. or write this paper, it was Create this art piece or learn this design program and design this flier/whatever. Granted, this was WAY funner than writing a paper (in my mind). Just took a lot more personal influence.
Anyways. Even with all that... I miss it. I have fond memories of that chapter of my life. I am still friends with those roommates. We're mostly all married and have kids: 3 out of 4 of us. :)
Life has changed.
And then at times I get looking to the future. Wondering what its going to be like? Will my daughter make the choices and mistakes and all that, that I did? Yikes! I dont' want to think about that!
I just need to remind myself to focus on the present. TO learn from the past, to use it in the future, but to dwell in the present. Enjoy the present. Live in the present.
"There is an appointed time for everything. And there is a time for every event under heaven. A time to give birth and a time to die; A time to plant and a time to uproot what is planted. A time to kill and a time to heal; A time to tear down and a time to build up. A time to weep and a time to laugh; A time to mourn and a time to dance. A time to throw stones and a time to gather stones; A time to embrace and a time to shun embracing. A time to search and a time to give up as lost; A time to keep and a time to throw away. A time to tear apart and a time to sew together; A time to be silent and a time to speak. A time to love and a time to hate; A time for war and a time for peace." Ecclesiastes 3:1-8